This post marks the 500th time I sat at my computer and wrote down some of my thoughts. Perhaps we should have a virtual party with helium balloons, a sheet cake from the local bakery, a tune or two, and a toast. At least something momentous.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-5zlj49ugk
From the first post in December 2009, I laid my heart out. I examined my life, I worried about my friends and most of all I mourned. What a long bumpy ride. I marked small victories and bemoaned the times I stumbled. Guess what? Mourning does not come with a switch.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7RbYKVcx0so&NR=1
Writing was an education in self. I learned what I can take and what I refuse to face. I examined the dark places and found sightless unspeakable horrors. Guilt wears an ugly robe of accusations and self-loathing. But the boogeyman fails the tough test when the light of reason reveals the truth. The white hot flames of anger seared me. Somewhere in the ashes I found myself.
I talked about my buddy PH. I fight a battle I will not win. That does not mean I am ready to quit. Just stating facts and looking for ways to dodge the inevitable for awhile longer.
Life does go on, but I do not forget. I hope I did not disappoint you, too.
Later, Dude.
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