Moving the cheese upsets everyone's world. Look at the improved FB. And now my blog.
Super Bowl Sunday. One more day of wanton eating. *sigh* Today's menu features fried chicken, potatoes, summer *haha* squash and carrots. The squash and carrots cancel out the chicken and spuds, right? If I must after all that, maybe some frozen cherries. I also envision a nap on the couch this afternoon to rest up for the big game. I would hate to sleep through it. Pogo expects a nap buddy, after all.
Oh yes, I plan to slow cook some boneless pork ribs, too. Connie needs something to reheat when she gets off work this week.
Later, dude.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Points of contention
Your mom avoids me like the plague. That saddens me, but I do not know what else to do. I have tried apologies and asking Dave. He says I worry too much. Yep, that is me all right.
Arthritis pain must be just terrible. Poor Connie suffers so much and says so little. I need to try to pay more attention and help when I can. She needs to try to slow down some, but that is not her nature. I need to figure out something to help her.
Cheryl looks so wonderful. Positive thoughts go to her. Kirsop also looks great. Thank goodness. I am ill prepared for another loss.
Connie says she has not hounded me to go back to exercise though she thinks I should. Then she threw in the excuse of the weather. That is a true friend.
The hunger monster follows me everywhere. I am not doing a good job of facing it down, either. Not so sure my stomach communicates very well with my brain. Or perhaps they just avoid each other as much as possible. The lure of chocolate and sugary treats has been so great, I cannot allow them to cross my threshold. They probably would not last more than a day.
I do not know what I want anymore, but I cannot get it from you. I miss you so terribly, but what good does that do? Again I ask: what is the proper mourning period for someone you knew six months? Who knows?
Later.
Arthritis pain must be just terrible. Poor Connie suffers so much and says so little. I need to try to pay more attention and help when I can. She needs to try to slow down some, but that is not her nature. I need to figure out something to help her.
Cheryl looks so wonderful. Positive thoughts go to her. Kirsop also looks great. Thank goodness. I am ill prepared for another loss.
Connie says she has not hounded me to go back to exercise though she thinks I should. Then she threw in the excuse of the weather. That is a true friend.
The hunger monster follows me everywhere. I am not doing a good job of facing it down, either. Not so sure my stomach communicates very well with my brain. Or perhaps they just avoid each other as much as possible. The lure of chocolate and sugary treats has been so great, I cannot allow them to cross my threshold. They probably would not last more than a day.
I do not know what I want anymore, but I cannot get it from you. I miss you so terribly, but what good does that do? Again I ask: what is the proper mourning period for someone you knew six months? Who knows?
Later.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Heroes
The larder starves. I think a trip to the store needs to happen soon. I cannot remember exactly when I went the last time, but I think it was a couple of weeks.
Developers changed FB again and the hew and cry has begun. After checking it out, I like some of the new features. Moving the cheese discombobulates many though.
Cheryl continues to amaze me. Her will pushes her through this unimaginable time. I adore her and her bravery. Her family truly rocks, too.
Kirsop also mends well. The docs moved him out of ICU yesterday. Wow, less than a week. His determination serves as an inspiration to many.
I should honor all my PHriends as heroes.. They all go through so much pain to live. I treated my body like crap for many years and I still am better off than them.
Dude, I miss our chats.
Later.
Developers changed FB again and the hew and cry has begun. After checking it out, I like some of the new features. Moving the cheese discombobulates many though.
Cheryl continues to amaze me. Her will pushes her through this unimaginable time. I adore her and her bravery. Her family truly rocks, too.
Kirsop also mends well. The docs moved him out of ICU yesterday. Wow, less than a week. His determination serves as an inspiration to many.
I should honor all my PHriends as heroes.. They all go through so much pain to live. I treated my body like crap for many years and I still am better off than them.
Dude, I miss our chats.
Later.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Positive thoughts
Cheryl has been in surgery for about five hours now. About three or so to go. I cannot believe it went so fast for her. Cheryl is strong. She will do just fine.
Kirsop also is doing marvelously. The man has lots of reasons to live.
You took over the lead in EPL this week. Hahahahahahahaha.. I won the round but I still am in the cellar. Pete probably forgot to even make moves. He is emersed in the National Board thing. I hope he does well. That would make a nice tribute to you.
I am thinking of you, your mom and friends today. Two months. That is a third of the time I knew you. Whew. Won't be long before you will have been gone longer than I knew you. Hard to believe how fast time goes by.
Later.
Kirsop also is doing marvelously. The man has lots of reasons to live.
You took over the lead in EPL this week. Hahahahahahahaha.. I won the round but I still am in the cellar. Pete probably forgot to even make moves. He is emersed in the National Board thing. I hope he does well. That would make a nice tribute to you.
I am thinking of you, your mom and friends today. Two months. That is a third of the time I knew you. Whew. Won't be long before you will have been gone longer than I knew you. Hard to believe how fast time goes by.
Later.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Not much of this nor that
Having me manage your teams would have been a joke. Dude, you still are leading in the soccer leagues or close to it. You are not far behind me this week in EPL. Fulham plays today. We shall see what that does to the standings.
I left the house yesterday for the first time in almost a week. Had to pay the rent and go to the drugstore. The roads were not bad at all. The weather dudes say more to come. Why is it now their accuracy rates go up? I should have gone for bloodwork, too.
Kim sent me an email with the date of your Massachusetts memorial service -- May 1. As much as I would like to go, I cannot justify spending the money nor putting more pressure on your mother. I wonder what you would think, but I am doing the best I can.
Kirsop still is in lots of pain and has a hard time sleeping. He has the will and you are watching over him. Both good things.
If I am reading everything correctly, I did not make enough money this past year to have to file a tax return. That certainly is a first for me. Medicare looms right around the corner, too. Ugh.
I do miss you, dude.
Later.
I left the house yesterday for the first time in almost a week. Had to pay the rent and go to the drugstore. The roads were not bad at all. The weather dudes say more to come. Why is it now their accuracy rates go up? I should have gone for bloodwork, too.
Kim sent me an email with the date of your Massachusetts memorial service -- May 1. As much as I would like to go, I cannot justify spending the money nor putting more pressure on your mother. I wonder what you would think, but I am doing the best I can.
Kirsop still is in lots of pain and has a hard time sleeping. He has the will and you are watching over him. Both good things.
If I am reading everything correctly, I did not make enough money this past year to have to file a tax return. That certainly is a first for me. Medicare looms right around the corner, too. Ugh.
I do miss you, dude.
Later.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Taking stock
Today I realized I am the oddity in this whole mix. I came on the scene real late and do not have CF or a transplant. I think the time to bow out gracefully nears. That saddens me.
I played a role in your final days. I may have seen you out of this world, but my friendship in the total measure of your life was infinitesimal.
I could have begged you to keep trying. I could have reacted in other ways, but I told you it was OK to leave. You not so politely told me that was not my decision to make. Even telling you that you could leave irked you. You told me it was a nice sentiment, but one that was misplaced.
Your friends, who knew you well, say you would have come back around on your thinking about SG if you had had more time. Maybe so. But you did not have more time, and I know you knew that. You were mad at her right up until the end. Of course, I do not know what you told your mother in your final hours. Maybe you did come around.
See, you left a trail of doubts and questions behind you. I guess that is good. Each of us has to settle in our own minds what we meant to you. But the penguin also left clues, huh? Some of them are easier to read than others, though.
I wish I had asked more questions instead of just listening. I miss you so much, dude.
Later.
I played a role in your final days. I may have seen you out of this world, but my friendship in the total measure of your life was infinitesimal.
I could have begged you to keep trying. I could have reacted in other ways, but I told you it was OK to leave. You not so politely told me that was not my decision to make. Even telling you that you could leave irked you. You told me it was a nice sentiment, but one that was misplaced.
Your friends, who knew you well, say you would have come back around on your thinking about SG if you had had more time. Maybe so. But you did not have more time, and I know you knew that. You were mad at her right up until the end. Of course, I do not know what you told your mother in your final hours. Maybe you did come around.
See, you left a trail of doubts and questions behind you. I guess that is good. Each of us has to settle in our own minds what we meant to you. But the penguin also left clues, huh? Some of them are easier to read than others, though.
I wish I had asked more questions instead of just listening. I miss you so much, dude.
Later.
Monday, February 1, 2010
New month, new me?
A few more days and the two-month anniversary of your death will be here. Time has gone by quickly.
I keep thinking I need to get out of the house. The cold and snow make a perfect excuse though. Sooner or later, like today, I need to get some prescriptions, pay the rent and check the mail. A grocery store visit also looms.
I managed to haul in the points this weekend in EPL. We shall see that happens the rest of the week. The schedule includes weekdays this week. La Liga matches are under way as well. You know how that experiment went. Haha
I see your mom online occasionally, but she has never hollered at me. Your brother says she does not know about chat, etc. I think he is wrong, but you know what? I am reaching the point I don't care.
Kim has asked me a couple of times if I am coming to your memorial in the spring. Dude, for you I would come. But I know you do not expect me to, and it might be terribly awkward. What say you?
Kirsop is doing quite well from what his brother is posting. He is awake this morning. He has a long row to hoe, but I think he has much reason to heal quickly in the form of two little girls and a partner. His donor was from Scotland. I wonder what Krisop will say now that he has some Scot in him. Haha. Will he start cheering for Chelsea?
Peace dude.
Later.
I keep thinking I need to get out of the house. The cold and snow make a perfect excuse though. Sooner or later, like today, I need to get some prescriptions, pay the rent and check the mail. A grocery store visit also looms.
I managed to haul in the points this weekend in EPL. We shall see that happens the rest of the week. The schedule includes weekdays this week. La Liga matches are under way as well. You know how that experiment went. Haha
I see your mom online occasionally, but she has never hollered at me. Your brother says she does not know about chat, etc. I think he is wrong, but you know what? I am reaching the point I don't care.
Kim has asked me a couple of times if I am coming to your memorial in the spring. Dude, for you I would come. But I know you do not expect me to, and it might be terribly awkward. What say you?
Kirsop is doing quite well from what his brother is posting. He is awake this morning. He has a long row to hoe, but I think he has much reason to heal quickly in the form of two little girls and a partner. His donor was from Scotland. I wonder what Krisop will say now that he has some Scot in him. Haha. Will he start cheering for Chelsea?
Peace dude.
Later.
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