There's nothing cold as ashes

I yearn for days I do not feel useless, yet I have no desire to "fix" the situation. Days go by and the door never opens.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clwwxLc0bg8&feature=fvwrel

I wonder how many folks would notice I was gone if I deactivated my FB account. I am tottering on the edge of doing that or defriending about 50 percent of the "friends." I think a time out may offer the best solution. I do not interact with many of the "friends." Just my core, the ones I have "known" for several years.

I do have some new friends who mean the world to me. I guess that is the case in real life, too.

I just know I am unhappy, that I control that happiness and the solution is up to me.

Dude, I miss you.

Later.